Student!Japan X Depressed!reader,Smile today

~Your P.O.V.~
"____________ are you armost done?"
I heard Kiku say and i let out a sigh.
I forced a smile and then walked downstairs to Japanese man.
"Finarry"he said and smiled "i thought you wourd never finish" he said and i giggled.
"I'm sorry, i was just busy" i said and pulled down my sleeves.
I saw Kiku glare at me strangely but then he shook his head.
"Well, come on! Let's get going. I don't want to be late again" i said and he nodded.

When we finally arrived at school we rushed to class.
Always, when Kiku and i are in school, Kiku is very protective.
Almost as if he is protecting me for everyone around me.
I'm really happy with that actually! I alway feel a little bit saver with him around me.
But, sometimes, when he isn't around me. I get a kind of, lonely and scared feeling.
I can see persons around me whispering and hear them laughing.
Sometimes, it's just my imagination. But sometimes it's not.
When someone is acting mean towards me or anything, Kiku always helps me out.
He may not look so strong for some, but he is really intimidating sometimes and the look in his eyes. Some find it scary.
But, around me. He is different. He is so friendly and nice. Funny sometimes too!
I'm really happy, with a person like him in my life!

"__________? Are you stirr asreep?" I immediately recognized Kiku, by his voice and his accent.
I smiled and scratched my head "yeah, sorry i was just daydreaming" i said and chuckled.
"You rearry shourd sreep more"he said.
Easy for him to say...
We walked to the classroom and the teacher wasn't there yet.
Some of the other students were there already and were talking to eachother.
I looked around and saw a person sit alone.
He has glasses and blond hair, with a big curl.
I walked over to him and stopped infront of his desk.
He looked up, sort of surprised and looked around him.
When i walked away, Kiku immediately followed me.
"Hello,i'm ___________ how are you?" I asked the boy and he looked around him.
As if he was confused he looked at me with big eyes.
"Y-you are talking to m-me?"he said almost whispering.
I nodded and the boy brightened "wow...s-someone can see me.." He said and faintly smiled.
He held out his hand towards me "m-my name is Matthew, Matthew Williams. N-nice to meet you ________" he said and i shook his hand.
I chuckled and i saw him blush slightly.
"Why aren't you talking to some of the others?" I asked him and looked at the other students , who were still chatting.
"W-wel... They don't n-notice me.i even yelled once. B-but i guess i'm just too quiet" he said the last few words even more quiet and then chuckled.
"Well then"i said and then took place on the seat infront of him.
"I notice you, so you can talk to me" i smiled and i saw him gasp.
Almost as he was about to cry, Matthew gulped and then nodded.
"I-i would like that.."he smiled.
Kiku was still standing for a second but then sat down next to me.
When i looked at him, i saw that he was smiling for some reason.
I ignored it and shrugged.


~Kiku's P.O.V.~
__________ walked over to an empty seat suddenly.
I quickly followed her and then looked at what she was doing.
"Hello,i'm ___________ how are you?" She said to the empty seat.
To who is she talking....i said and looked around.
"Y-you are talking to m-me?"i suddenly heard a voice.
Right then, a boy appeared onto the seat __________ was talking to.
Who is he..i never noticed him before.
"m-my name is Matthew, Matthew Williams. N-nice to meet you ________"he said and  held out his hand.
_________ shook his hand and smiled.
"Why aren't you talking to some of the others?"_____________ asked and looked at Matthew.
Just why is ________ talking to this boy... I thought she didn't like to talk to strangers.
"W-wel... They don't n-notice me.i even yelled once. B-but i guess i'm just too quiet"the boy said quietly.
"Well then" ________ took a seat infront of the boy."I notice you, so you can talk to me"________ said and smiled sweetly.
The boy,Matthew, blushed and nodded.
That boy is extremely shy and quiet.
I now understand why ____________ is talking to him.
This isn't the first time she did something like this,talking to someone like herself.
__________ is actually the same as him, very shy and unnoticed by the others.
She is just helping him getting some confidence i believe.
Just like i did for her, right?
I smiled and took the seat next to ___________.
She looked at me with a strange look, probably because i'm smiling like this.
She shrugged and turned back to the boy.

The whole lesson she talked to the boy, without the teacher noticing.
The two of then were both smiling the whole time.
That's the ____________ everyone is used to see.
Always smiling,every day of the week, 24 hours a day.
But, i know that she isn't happy all the time.
Just this morning, i noticed cuts in her arm. She pulled down her sleeves to hide them.
I have heard some things about her past, that she was bullied allot and allot more worse things.
I feel terrible for her but she is so strong, that she is still able to smile this much.
When the classes ended i walked with ___________.
"Hey Kiku, i have to go and search for a book. Are you coming with me?" She asked and looked at me with her big (E/C) orbs.
I nodded and then we went to the library.
When we walked to it we noticed someone standing infront of it.
___________ immediately stopped walking when he saw him.
The albino grinned when he saw us and started walking to us.
Gilbert Beilschmidt, or the "awesome one" as he calls himself was the person.
_________ never liked him that much and i guess he doesn't like her ether.
________ turned around and was ready to walk away "Hey! Don't you know zhat's rude? Just ignoring me like zhat? You should know that vith a boyfriend so polite as Kiku, kesesese~" Gilbert said and grinned.
________ stopped walking and blushed.she stood still. her back facing him.
She turned around and faced him.
"I just need to get a book from the library.." She said and took a step to the side, but Gilbert did the same and blocked her way.
"A book? Aawh books are boring! Zhey are so much less awesome zhen zhe awesome me!" The german boy said and pointed to himself.
__________ let out a sigh and her smile became smaller.
"I'll be going home Kiku, see you tomorrow"She said and left.
I didn't even got the time to say something and she was gone.
I let out a sigh and looked at Gilbert who gulped.
"Girbert....why wourd you do that to __________" I said with a serious tone.
He took a step back and chuckled, as if he is scared.
But then he put his hands in his sides "because! It's fun to tease persons like _________! Zheir reactions are alvays funny"he replied chuckling.
"But i zhink you have to follow your girl" he said and turned around.
"Tell her i said hi!" He waved goodbye and ran away.
I let out a sigh. I saw that he was also scared of me.
A roomer has appeared about me.
That i'm very violent and almost murdered one of the students.
Ofcourse that isn't true.
A boy once saw me holding a katana and i saw him running away screaming.
I believe his name was Alfred Jones.
Now i think of it, that one boy from class, Matthew, i heard he is his brother!
But i don't have to to complain about that now.
I have to go and look if ___________ already left to go home,or she is just hiding somewhere.


~Time skip! Brought to you by .....who?~


~Kiku's P.O.V~
I was back home.
I couldn't find ___________ at school and i saw that her bike wasn't there anymore.
She probably left immediately.
I have been having this strange feeling the whole day.
As if something bad is going to happen.
But, some rest will make it better.
I laid down onto my bed and covered myself with my blanket.
Just when i was laying comfortable, i heard the phone ring.
I let out a sigh "who wourd carr me now?" I said and stood up.
I walked over to the phone and picked it up.
I looked and saw the name of __________ on the small screen.
"Moshi moshi, with Kiku"
I heard some strange noises from the other side.
Some kind of sobbing.
"K-Kiku...i-i can't do it anymore!..."i heard _________ voice from the other side.
She was crying and screaming.
I could barely understand her through her sobs.
"__________! What's the matter?!" I said back" you can't take what?" I said and tried to calm myself down too a little.
There was a moment of silence by ________.
"Everything!....the people around me acting like that!...that empty feeling all day...i just can't take live anymore!"_____________ screamed and my whole body started to shake.
Can't take it anymore?...you're calling me because you...
My eyes widened " no no! __________ prease! Carm down!" I said and tightly gripped my phone.
I heard a loud crack,probably because of the device breaking.
My voice cracked and my heart pounded in my chest.
There was a long silence and i could hear a pin drop.
"I-i'm sorry Kiku....sayonara.."
She said and the call stopped.

I dropped the phone and immediately ran outside.
My house isn't that far from _____________'s house so i can be there quickly.
My eyes started to water and i was panting.
I ran through the dark streets.
The streets were lit by some lanterns and there was no soul outside.
I could hear my heart beat in my throat and i felt pain in my legs already but, i kept running.
When i saw ___________'s house i saw that there were still light burning and i saw a silhouette upstairs.
I ran towards the door and bursted through it.
I quickly went up the stairs and entered the room where i saw light.
When i entered the room my eyes widened.
I saw ___________ holding a knife with both hands,towards herself.
Her eyes were red from crying and her clothes were ripped.
The whole room was a mess.
Because of her ripped clothes, i could see the cuts she made before.
I didn't know it were so much...
"___________ PREASE WAIT!" I said and took a step towards her.
When i did she looked up with eyes wide.
She put the blade infront of her throat and her hands were shaking.
"Stay there!....please....Kiku, just Leave!"she yelled and tears streamed down her cheeks,
"_______... Put the knife down....think about what you are about to do" i said and bit my lip,
" i know what i'm going to do! I'm gonna end all of this...all my suffering. After this. I don't need to worry, about all the hate! In this cruel place!" She was panting and she was red.
"Prease, just stop thinking about the negative things. Think about the good things, rike how you make other people happy, people you don't know! And me! And think about your famiry and friends!....if you are gone... They wirr be very sad. Just think rike the positive person you always are! The smiring, happy _________!"
I said and tried to confinse ___________
She slightly lowered the knife "no! That's exactly the problem! People think...that because i'm smiling, that i'm happy. But i'm not! I-i'm simply dying from the inside! I'm tired of forcing a smile everyday, like a mask!"
_________ let out several sobs and squeezed the knife.
" i'm sorry...Kiku" she slowly lifted up the knife to her throat.
She closed her eyes and i ran as fast as i could to stop her.
I grabbed both her wrists and tightly squeezed them.
"L-Let go!" She screamed and struggled to get out of my grip.
She is actually quite strong for a girl her age.
I shook my head and squeezed her wrists more.
She let out a yelp and i heard the knife drop down onto the floor.
She immediately looked down and wanted to pick it up but i stopped her.
I put my forehead against hers and our gaze met.
"____________, prease. Carm down..." I repeated a few times.

After a minute ___________'s shoulders lowered and she calmed down a little.
I placed her down onto the bed that was in the room and quickly put away the knife.
I sat down next to her and i could see that she was still shaking.
I looked at her wrists, and the cuts she has made.
"For how rong have you been doing that?"i asked her and pointed towards the cuts.
She shrugged "i don't know, it has been so long" she said and intertwined her fingers.
I gulped when she said that, why didn't i noticed before? And why didn't i do something then?
"Just why did you want to do that...? "I talked slowly and she shrugged again.
"I have thought for a while, but never had enough courage"she replied.
I took a deep breath. This is not going far...
"Just....why ___________? "I asked and i could see a tear fall down from her nose.



~Your P.O.V.~
"Just....why ___________? "Kiku said and looked towards me.
I felt a teardrop fall down from my nose and i gulped.
"Because of everything....my life..the world, just everything around me. All the hate, the whispered and gossips. All the bulling, murders and more worse things.
And i know! You'll be saying that i don't even had something with murderers and what else, but, i have problems too. With my family, being social and even going outside"
I replied and in the corner of my eyes, tears formed again.
I took a deep breath and slowly breathed out.
"I have told this earlier, but now i'm just...ready i guess."
I felt a hand onto my lap and looked up.
Kiku smiled but his hands were shaking allot on my lap.
"Then, why are you thinking, about the onry the bad things? And why are you rying to yourself"
Kiku said and gripped my hand "there wirr arways be problems in rife and you wirr make mistakes, but. One shourd rearn, to appreciate the good and bad things ind rife, and rearn from our mistakes"
He said and smiled, i saw a teardrop fall down from one of his eyes.
"And, you are sociar! Just think about the boy from crass, Matthew. You made him smire, right?" He then said and squeezed my hand.
That's right, he smiled allot when we talked and he looked like he was enjoying himself when we talked.
"Why haven't you tord me earrier?"Kiku then asked.
"Because... I don't want you to get sad, because of me. I don't want that others get in trouble because of my problems" i said and Kiku then nodded.

"So then, what about the future? " i asked and looked into Kiku's eyes.
"What if i'll get this feeling again in the future, and you won't be there to save me?" I asked and Kiku looked away.
I heard him then chuckle and he looked back at me, smiling.
"Thats the great thing about life!,you are too young, to think about that right now and it may look al black and bad now, but this isn't the end to your story. A story can only end, with a good end"
Kiku said and the corners of my mouth slowly went up.

"So you think, it'r be good now?" Kiku asked and looked into my eyes.
We were standing outside and i was about to wave him goodbye.
I nodded and wipe my nose quickly.
The Japanese boy then smiled and then turned around to walk away.
I clutched my fist "Kiku, wait!" I said and ran towards him.
He turned around but then gasped.
I put my arms around him and hugged him.
I know that he was looking shocked now, he isn't the person who loves hugging and what now.
It really surprised me, but Kiku hugged me back!
My eyes widened and i felt the warm touch of his hands.
"Prease, feer free to come to me. You are wercome any time. And we wirr be together anytime"he said and let go of me.
"__________, ret's spend the four seasons together, sharr we?"
I smiled and nodded.
He the left but just when he was about to disapear i saw that his ears and his cheeks were bright red.
I chuckled and quickly went back inside.


~time skip? Brought to you by a blushing Japan!~


~Kiku's P.O.V.~
I walked to _____________'s house, just like every morning, to pick her up.
She was already standing outside and waited for me.
A few months have passed since that day...and lots of thing have changed.
"Finally you are here" she yelled and hugged me.
I chuckled and hugged her back.
"Well, ret's go to schoor" i said and grabbed her hand.
_________ and i have been in a relationship since that day.
I promised to make her smile everyday.
"Funny how everything has changed" ___________ suddenly said and i chuckled.
"Yes, that's right. But, rife is rike a box of chocorates, you never know what you are going to get{1}" i said chuckling.
________ laughed "you got that from a movie,dummy!"
She smiled and held my hand as we walked to school.
"You know, i noticed,that dat when you told something about good and bad things, you said it completely right"________ said chuckling.
Ah? I don't even remember that anymore.
I chuckled and pointed to myself "maybe i'm getting even better at tarking!"
________ chuckled and shook her head.

When we arrived at school, ___________ immediately went to Matthew.
The three of us have became friends.
___________ smiled and so did the two of us when we were together.
I'm happy that ________ can truly smile now.

Please.... May you smile today, __________.